I would start off this post with “hello, it’s me”, but (a) it seems like Adele has claimed that phrase from now on and (b) it seems like a rather presumptuous way to start a blog post, because, unlike Adele, I’m not sure if anyone remembers me. It’s been a bit of time since I last posted.
Way, way back in September, which feels like an eternity ago, I made a post to say goodbye and to announce that I was moving on to new ventures, mainly in music. I had just released an album, I was moving to a new place, I was trying to line up small venues to play live, and I was working on a new website. Very soon after that, all of my plans fell completely apart. And then, very, very soon after that, I realized I had absolutely no idea what I was doing, professionally or personally. The chaos in my head became so aggressive, and so tiresome, that something inside of me just snapped and I essentially gave up.
Months went by and all of the plans and deadlines that I made to myself starting passing by me. At first, this new aimless direction I was going in became kind of worrisome, then terrifying. Eventually, though, it just became routine. When someone who knew me would ask when I was going to start playing live or work more on a new website or do anything that involved music, I would always say, “really soon”, when in reality I had no intentions of doing anything or moving forward in any tangible way.
After a certain point, however, this passive way of living became just too upsetting. I realized how exhausting it is to give up. So, I began making a plan.
This is all a little vague and there is much more to my story that I could, and possibly will, share in a while. But for now, I’ll just say that I’m back—at least for a little bit—and here to share with you what’s going on with my life from this point forward. If anyone is interested in following my story, check back regularly, as I’ll be posting here for the next few months.
Talk to you soon. It’s been too long.